You have to get into head trips to be able to get into the title of this post.  But here’s a brief touch on explaining.

There are certain stages of insanity that we go through with events, accomplishments, good news, and self (there are more but let’s leave it at that).  After a high, there always seems to be the downside and NO, I’m not talking about a chemically induced high, I mean good old, home grown, human emotion.  Coupled with the high can come a major amount of stress and part of the high is accomplishing the necessary while you’re in maxed out stress mode.  Events happen, life smoothes out, and you really haven’t been anywhere or done anything outstanding but you’re on the downslide side of a high.

In way, it’s a form of depression, but not.

In the middle of all of it, something is always in the mix and always needs done and tomorrow there’ll be double scoops of all of them loaded onto yesterday’s dirty dish.  If one thing is worked out today, three more things crop up to be first in line for attention tomorrow.

This summer has been a crazy mad dash of rushing to finalize the property deal, make the reunion, come back to find one of my boys in jail (aaah-huh, shit happens), mothers of grandkids that don’t get along and want to keep telling me about it, long months of dealing with tooth stress/pain/irritation, more time spent on property clean-up and contractors, working on PokerWorks 7 days a week, with other little wonderful things thrown in like the windows not moving on the Steed, the Card Fairy cooking my bankroll I built from a freeroll, and just things that everyone goes through.

There seems to be a semblance of settling going on in some of it.

The truck driving duo will be loading up and leaving Missoula MT on Saturday for the permanent move here and that has been hanging in the air for quite some time…it’s finalized.  Most of the property clean-up and contractor work is finished.  I’m comfortably settled into my new digs location and trying to find a comfortable work/live/sleep zone that fits.  Summer’s coming to an end.

I’m coming down from nowhere, it feels a bit strange, I don’t want to do anything or focus or plan anything.  I won’t.

Just sitting back…

looking out my window as the sun starts to drop out of the sky…