I’ve been trying to fade climbing out of a rut that started about a week ago.  I’m stuck. Years ago I heard ‘the only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth’ and did they ever hit it on the head or what?  Things have changed and with it I must change, it gets much harder as you get older.  Yeah, that’s only my opinion.  But I do remember younger days where I just breezed past things because I knew tomorrow would be a better day.  Perhaps that’s what aging does for us…makes us realize that we don’t have nearly as many tomorrows left as we did back then…and that no matter how hard we try to accomplish, it sometimes just isn’t enough.

I haven’t figured out yet if it’s a rut or a grave.

I’m kinda dumb struck by these young hot rod poker players that appear to amass a small fortune and then get involved in cheating.  There’s many a strewn body along the way to poker success where cheaters have been pin pointed, named, some lost their positions over it, others managed to semi save face after behaving like they should have in the first place, and went on to improve their life in poker and their options with online poker contracts. The latest one is beyond solving IMHO – I mean the whole thought process that didn’t go into what the outcome could be – after everything else that’s been publicized on the internet forums and chats and talked about in live poker venues – and then, as to why it happened. Supposedly cheater face José “Girah” Macedo ran a few hundred into over $2 Million playing online poker and then went stupid to help someone cheat.

To the world of players that play regularly online and struggle for every penny they pull in, I envy those of you that can enter the William Hill Wanted.  Damn the US for shutting down our opportunity to make money playing online poker and for depriving us of the fun of blogging about our bad beats in online poker rooms.  And just a little over four months ago, I could have played the Freerolls for a free seat in the main event of the WCOOP.  But not now.  I’m protected by the US government.  Obama is still a coward.  I wonder who protects us from our government.

Back to the rut.  I think I’ll stay there awhile longer and then burst into a fit of energy – or flame, I’ll let you know how it goes.