The World is Filled with Toxicity

It didn’t start out that way but mankind made sure to fix it.  And fix it we did.  Many long days I have pondered my relationship with life.  Many times I’ve felt that I have it all neatly bundled into a niche that feels damned good. 

Reality sets in.  I have no relationship with anything.  I struggle to find reasons to be.  I toe the ground at the complexity of how we’ve all managed to keep the planet in tact and stay alive as long as we have.  I rarely find a way to be angry at anyone or anything.  I do find irritation with some people and some circumstances but it slips away like the wind sweeps the desert.  I expect nothing, from anyone, no quarter given, none taken.

The last thought brings the answer to the core issue in relationships.  Expectation.  Everyone expects something from someone else.  Relationships begin for many different reasons or needs.  At the outset, most enter with mind open, they’re willing to adapt if they want to pursue the relationship, and the things that attracted them to begin with?  Those spicy, little, enticing things can end up being a huge, boiling mass of toxicity as the relationship progresses.  It comes down to expectation.  Give up the things you used to do, the way you used to be, because now you’re with me.  And that doesn’t only go for sexual/romantic relationships, it floats in almost everything going down.  We expect.  When we don’t get what we expect, we begin to boil over…little by little…the edges start to form and the boundaries are drawn.  Cross that line Sunshine, everything changes, toxicity sets in…big time.

Obviously you don’t have to agree with me.  I don’t expect you to.

I do expect you to enjoy my son’s artistic view of his wife:

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I have no idea where the boy got his talent from but it certainly wasn’t from me.  Two of my boys, actually, are incredible artists.  I do draw pretty good stick people.

On the subject of pictures, I took a screenshot of a hand replay on Absolute Poker today.  Please note the rabbit hanging over the top of the Jack of Spades.  And please tell me why.

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I didn’t really expect to win $65 in a $2-4 Jackpot game and $24 in a $1-2 Jackpot game on Absolute today – although I expected to win – just not that much.  SWEET!  See…when you don’t expect something, how nice it is when it happens?

6 thoughts on “The World is Filled with Toxicity”

  1. The rabbit threw me too when I first saw it, but it is a ‘rabbit cam’ and a setting/option. If everyone folds you can rabbit hunt, in this case everyone folded on the flop so the turn was the rabbit card. Don’t ask me how one does it, I just know it is some option…
    Congrats on the win!

  2. Linda, I’m disappointed. You know what rabbit shooting is all about.

    Glad to see you folded that hand early.

  3. hi linda dont know if your serious but if u are the rabbit is over the card because when the hand is over and you want to see the next card its called rabbit hunting especially in the south its popular term anthony

  4. thanks everyone for the report on the rabbit, yes, I was serious. No, I did not know you could rabbit hunt in online poker…thought it was only done in low limit games and in Bobby’s Room when the live one wanted to know what the next card was – LMAO! I have looked at hand replays before on Absolute and never saw the rabbit, it just struck me as bizarre.

  5. too funny. i just had that exact conversation with a friend of mine regarding relationships…she’s dying to get in one and on with her life while i am suggesting she enjoy THIS time. THAT time will come soon enough. so, am i channeling you or are you channeling me!?!? 😉
    hope all is as well as it can be with you, luv ya

  6. Hey Monkey, you’ve come to my thoughts more than a few times the last week. I’ll try to get my brain in gear to call for a chat. We’re definitely channeling. Things are OK, life is strange…but what’s new? Hope things are moving forward for you…in the positive

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